Eric, thank you for the book suggestion - I will pick it up asap.

David is not the therapy / counseling type. I do wish that he was though. I was raised in foster care, and strongly believe in the power of confiding in a good counselor to get through tough times and help define reality vs a flawed perception. Another reason I am so grateful for this safe haven with others going through the exact same ordeal. Thank you all for caring enough to share your experiences and advice.

With the kids being out of school for the summer, we're trying hard to steer clear and not be an irritant to him. I can relate to the feelings of resentment for doing the majority of the work but quickly feel guilty for feeling resentful for one moment after reading the posts of loved ones losing their lives to this disease. I'm going to do my very best to look at each day with David as a gift. I know he's not angry with me... just taking it out on me - probably because he feels safe enough to. It is taking it's toll on me - and I need to focus on taking care of the kids, the house and working on top of this monumental caretaker role. Hopefully we'll get to a point soon where he'll find a new way to express how he's feeling...

Prayers are very appreciated. I don't post often, but now you know why!

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All the best,

-Philly