Little Sister- I've been learning that sometimes we have to put the depressing thoughts in a compartment in our minds that we can and will visit but not dwell on. Put it on a shelf that you can go back to but not stay there permanently. Your brother is in a better place and you need to try and heal. Believe me, I cry at the drop of a hat and spiral down on a regular basis but's it's not healthy for you to stay in that place for too long. Your brother would want you to think of him with a smile rather than sadness. I think that with time we will bw able to bring up the happy memories more often. You owe to to yourself-you've been through a trauma and that's hell enough for now.

Sue