Dave,

You've had a lifetime of trouble in a short amount of time. You need to take care of yourself. When I was in the midst of my surgeries and treatments, my ENT always made a point to seek my wife out and tell her to take care of herself. He went out of his way to make sure she didn't get to run down. When you get exhausted both physically and emotionally, you need to re-charge yourself. I agree with what JAM wrote. Do something that interests you. Take a trip, take your mind off of your problems for a while, even if it's for a few hours or a day. Know that you are not alone in this. Many of us here, and our families have had the same feelings that you have. Keep your head up. We can handle anything that comes our way.

John