Nicki, Don't let this disease get to you. Tom is a fighter. I remember your first post when you described his initial attitude. Postitive, upbeat, tough, and looking forward to fighting this and winning. He will win. And you will help him to that goal. His treatment plan is the most effective in the medical arsenal as it is known today. Remember that a positive attitude is part of the tools needed to fight this thing. You and Tom are doing a splendid job, just keep it up and don't worry about it. The Lord will take care of you both. Have faith and take it one day at a time. It gets better.