My first RAD treatment today. Yes, being bolted down under the mask is frightening, but I did a lot of deep breathing and pictured my 8 month-old grandson smiling. I have to say it turned out better than my panicky anticipation. I mentioned in my introduction posts that I freak at the thought of restraint. I was so pleased to be told today that the restraints that pulled my shoulders down for the mapping scan aren't needed for treatments. That eased my mind a great deal. Back again tomorrow, of course. Wednesday is round one of three chemo treatments. Not sure why they said to expect to be there all day. HAve to get RAD again at some point. They'll work it out. After effects of the first treatment are slight if at all. I know this will change.