LWP - You WILL get through this. Everybody goes through the "freaked out" stage. It is important to inform yourself as much as you can through what you learn here or on the main pages of OCF. Be sure and write down all your questions for the doctors at your next visit and bring someone with you if you can so that you can check back with each other on what was said. When the negative thoughts start to attack your brain, just give them a time limit - like 2 minutes or less and then switch to all the things that can go Right instead of wrong. Keeping busy is very helpful, deep breathing and hanging on to the positives in your experience. Come here often. When my son was diagnosed with Oral Cancer with no known risk factors, I was a basket case of frantic worry but we both survived beautifully and he's been cancer free 7+ years!