wow, been a while.. i didn't take the land i was looking at, the house had more issues than i wanted to take on. i am now renting a house within walking distance to my brother and his family, my son gets to visit them whenever he likes and we are both coping well with the move. i am back to work, half way through week two and i have to say i am glad i decided to go back. the grief process is a huge challenge and with every good day comes the realization that he isn't here to share it with me. bittersweet is the norm for now.