Agreed - I was alone when I got my news - not good. Even though it came from my family do who's a darling. He immediately set up my scans and blood work and wit ing a day I had the results... So I could breath over christmas. And let me tell you I'm a pretty tough cookie. We all do things that aren't good for us - this is a wakeup call. Put it behind you and stop beating yourself up the past is gone there's little you could do to change it - work on the future! Hugs - good lck!