Kellijojo - I'm so sorry for what you have been through and are now experiencing. There are lots of wonderful people here with similar experiences to yours and can help you in many different ways. I'm not an RN - I am just a mother and if you were my daughter, I would want you to fight like you've never fought before to help yourself get to a better place and survive this cancer beast! My son was at a very low place in his life after divorce and diagnosed with SCC, and he's a survivor now with a beautiful lady in his life. Don't give up - there is a life and love after cancer. Stay with us and let us know what's happening with you.