I hope you can find something that makes you happy. I dont mean to pry but are you taking antidepressants? If not it may be something to look into. We all have those days where we feel down. If you have more down days than good days than it should be discussed with a doctor.

Not one of us oral cancer patients had it easy. Even the ones who seemed to sail right thru treatment struggled in some way. Im one of those people who think that positive thinking helps make things easier to get thru. Even people who have had a really bad time of it are lucky, they made it thru and are still around to talk about it. Its all how you look at things.

Im sorry if I interpreted your post differntly than what you intended. We are here to listen and its ok to vent. We all have to have an outlet to let off steam.

Hope today gets a little better for you.