Jen, I have had the scope every time I went to the ENT. I am now on a every 3 month schedule. It is not pleasant, but something that has to be gotten through. Just try to ignore it as much as possible. I also have a bad gag reflex and when they check my tonsils, or rather where my tonsils used to be, to try to feel if another tumor is developing, they do it digitally. By sticking their finger all the way into the tonsil bed. That's lots worse than the scope to me. Hope it gets easier for you.