I agree the waiting is the worst. Here we are knowing that we have this terrible thing and we are waiting. But once the treatments start you feel much better in the fact they you are now doing something to fight it. When Marvin started his treatments and we got into a routine of traveling everday to indy then things seem to go better for us. Hang in there. Once you start the time will go by faster then you thought possible. Dont worry about the house it will still be there when you feel better.