The "waaiittt is the hardest part". I remember pacing my house at all hours and wondering all the "what ifs". Once treatment starts you will be focusing on a goal and your mind will settle in. It then got really tough for me the 3 weeks after. I was done...yet getting worse every day. I used ativan and lunesta when I really needed it. I probably didn't use it enough. You will come out the other end and will be a changed person. Try to make this all a big positive in your life. Get all your friends and family around to participate and you will come out with stronger relationships than when you went in. Embrace the realtionships and it will all turn out ok. Were all here to ride the wave with you. All my best.
Rob J.