Dear Sweety,
We are glad you found us here at OCF. Everybody needs a place to let it all out. As you've found out, it feels horrible when you vent on the people close in your life. I think for the most part people do understand that when someone goes through this type of situation, they will experience all kinds of emotions. I hope that is the case with your loved one. Of course you are freaked out, angry, scared. You have every right to feel that way. Don't be so hard on yourself. You are welcome to private message or email me if you need to!
Christine
Wife of Scott: SCC, Stage I retromolar 10/02--33 rad; recurrence 10/03--Docetaxol, 5FU, Cisplatin; 1/04 radical right neck, hard palate, right tonsil; recurrence 2/04--mets to skin and neck; Xeloda and palliative care 3/04-4/04; died 5/01/04.
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