I HAVE SAID FROM DAY ONE IF YOU HAVE "C" ONCE AND YOU BEAT IT,,THEN THAT SHOULD BE IT,,YOU WON,,,BUT NO, NO, NO IT HAD TO COME BACK AGAIN AND THEN AGAIN,,,HOW MUCH CAN A BODY TAKE,,WELL I AM FINDING THIS ALL OUT,,NOW..IT HAS BEEN A LONG BATTLE FOR ME,,,BUT FOR 10 YEARS I LIVED AND I LIVED LOVING EVERY MINUTE THAT I HAD,NOW I AM IN THE HOUSE, I LOOK LIKE A CHIPMUNK,,LOL,,I DO,,FROM ALL THE SWELLING,,,,AND I AM ANGRY..THAT I SHOULD HAVE TO GO THRU ANY OF THIS AGAIN,,I AM ANGRY,, YOU BET I AM,,WHO WOULDN'T BE,,BUT I GO ON. I GET UP EVERYDAY AND PUSH MYSELF..THIS IS MY NEW WORD THIS TIME AROUND,,,I AM ANGRY,,,I COULD THINK OF A FEW MORE BUT THIS ONE IS NICER AND CLEANER,,LOL,,,I WOULD LOVE TO SMASH SOMETHING, HOWEVER I DONT HAVE ANYTHING TO THROW OR I SURE AS HELL WOULD...I WATCH MY 28 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER CRY OUT OF THE CORNER OF MY EYE,,AND YES I AM ANGRY, THESE ARE TEARS THAT SHE SHOULD NOT HAVE TO LET FLOW DOWN HERE FACE AGAIN..SHE SHOULD BE ABLE TO LIVE HER LIFE WITHOUT ALL THIS SADNESS..TOMORROW IS YET ANOTHER DAY, MAYBE THE SWELLING WILL GO DOWN??? AND WE PRAY