Monica, I can actually say I understand what you are saying. He must live to be with you, he must. I am sure our daughter thought the same when she found out her DADDY had throat cancer. She is truly a Daddy's girl and adores him. He was given a 50/50 change of being cured. He is now post treatment and the doctors can't believe the progress he has made. It is remarkable. Suggestion would be to get to the doctor and get something to calm your nerves so you can think straight and think positive. Ask questions, get answers and make sound decisions. Tell your DAD you are there for him. This forum will help you and pull you through this terrible experience. Hang in there. Keep us posted. Carol Ann.