Hi David, sounds like you're handling things. A word of advice on the peg tube - it's not an either or with eating. Jack used it and also kept swallowing whatever he could. You just figure out the total calories from doing both.

You bet it tears away at you and that does not make you a wimp. Jack is stage IV and he is 17 months post diagnosis - and doing well. You will be too. He had the peg tube about 8 months in all and was a happy camper the day it was removed. Today his swallowing is almost what it was before, he's back to work, and life is good. Hang in there, this too shall pass. Make sure that you keep checking your temperature, washing your hands, and taking reasonable precautions. Mostly make sure you are staying well hydrated with 2-3 quarts of water, in additon to your 3200 calories. That helps keep the side effects down.

Regards JoAnne