Sorry that it’s not the news you were hoping to get, but you don’t know yet what the treatment plan is, if it’s going to be surgery, radiation, chemo, or a combination. There is nothing yet for you to take hold of, learn about and prepare for. I can understand how this is fear-inducing. Once you have your treatment plan, I would encourage you to focus on what you can control, which is to learn as much as you can about your condition and treatment, line up support for yourself at home and to focus on your intake. It will be an uphill climb but you will be able to take it one step at the time. If you apply yourself to that, things will seem more manageable and you will feel more in control. Make “I can do it” your mantra.