[quote=wasamason]well today is the day I hear about my scans,hardly slep last night up every hour.Got up at 4;30am made fire and coffee trying to do normal things. Have to get my mind off this so going to log off maybe go for a walk on this cold morning,still dark best part of morning I feel,and when birds start singing,have a good day all [/quote]

Hang in there, buddy. We've all been there, some more than others. As the information becomes available, keep some good notes. I know it's all a blur and yes, there will be some sleepless nights. Don't be afraid to seek out a psychiatric oncologist if you think some therapy or meds can get you over the mental hump. Many of us found relief from that.

Normal? That may be the most elusive concept you've ever seen, for a while, at least.

Best wishes for some smooth sailing. Lean on us when you need to or want to. No question, no thought too small.

SCC Stage IV, BOT, T2N2bM0
Cisplatin/5FU x 3, 40 days radiation
Diagnosis 07/21/03 tx completed 10/08/03
Post Radiation Lower Motor Neuron Syndrome 3/08.
Cervical Spinal Stenosis 01/11
Cervical Myelitis 09/12
Thoracic Paraplegia 10/12
Dysautonomia 11/12
Hospice care 09/12-01/13.
COPD 01/14
Intermittent CHF 6/15
Feeding tube NPO 03/16
VFI 12/2016
ORN 12/2017
Cardiac Event 06/2018
Bilateral VFI 01/2021
Thoracotomy Bilobectomy 01/2022
Bilateral VFI 05/2022
Total Laryngectomy 01/2023