Y&W - you are using the site just fine, keep on doing what you are doing, but listen to (and do) what these people are telling you, and that is 1. quit smoking and 2. lie, cheat, steal (ie do whatever is necessary) but get yourself to an ENT doctor who specializes in oral cancer. Let him/her be the one to tell you what you have or what you need to do next. Stop trying to diagnose your own problem via what you read on the internet. Stop trying to relate your other physical problems to this one. They may or may not be related, but only an experienced doctor can make that decision ... not you, and not anyone on the internet.

Edit: I must have missed somewhere that you have a doctors appointment Monday ... sorry.

Lastly, stop worrying yourself silly over this. A high degree of worry is very common in our new forum members, we see it all the time. One of the first things we have to do for almost every new member is to get them to calm down and stop worrying. When you calm down you will start thinking rationally again and regain the ability to learn about your situation in a healthy, productive way.

If you just absolutely have to cruise the internet for information, go to our OCF website and read the stuff there. All of that stuff has been reviewed by experts before it was ever published here. It has a much higher chance of being legitimate and accurate than the unknown and unproven stuff found on most of the internet.

Hang in there, you will get through this. You will get through it much easier if you calm down and stop worrying so much.

take care,
Tony