Dear Paul, we are all entitled to bad days, so, please, there is no need to apologize or explain your anger. It would indeed be too hard if on top of trying to cope with the disease, the harsh treatments, the plethora of side-effects that we also feel constrained when it comes to expressing o our anger, disappointment and frustration.

Those of us who have followed your posts diligently know what you have been through and personally, I have tremendous respect for you -- for your knowledge, insights and courage in the face of huge odds against you.

I have learned a lot of helpful facts from you but, more significantly, I see in you a role model, especially on days when things don't seem to go right and I am overwhelmed by grief.