I'm back! I never really left. I was going to post the other day, but was busy with a few doctor appointments, blood test. All your comments brought a tear to my eye, not many rears lol, I have to keep strong, at least fake it. I want to appologize to Brian Hill, and anyone else I offended, and hijacking the post. No one insulted me, things have been rough more than usual, and my meds (diabetes) were off, BP, and needed to adjustment them, which is no excuse, and I should keep better contol of them for many reasons. Another is I can't say my next PET/CT is not worrysome. It's a major leap if clear, and a big set back, if not, and think about treatment options, which are very limited now, if at all, but will deal with it when I get there, It would be the first time in almost 4 years to have a clear scan after my 3 month post treatment scan, so was getting angry why this is so.