Oh gosh....I'm so so devastated today to know the biopsy result...and it's via what's app for god sake due I can't be at the hospital because of work. And it made me nearly fell on the ground even I was in a business meetings that needs my input..he'll it was sooooo hard for me to wait till I finished work and business dinner just to breakdown and cry!!...so now what......I thought at least we got a break to breathe...build up immune system...but no no it had to come right back at the same freaking place....oh gosh I am soooooo mad now...so down...so nervous...don't know what's gonna happen next?...surgery? Chemo? I know it's not me...but I am feeling it the most and breaking into pieces now........................I need Xanax.....