Hi Kilina, too bad you register here but good you have found the right place to share your fear. I am a stage 4 cancer survivor. Two years ago when I was diagnosed, my oncologist did not give me any statistics and I didn't bother to ask because I knew very well, the more I asked, the more frightened I would be. He only said that the team of doctors would try their best to cure me and of course I had to do my part. The battle was half won now and I asked my doctor for how long I can live. A silly question, my doctor said,because even a healthy person doesn't know how long he will live. So I learn to live one day at a time and start not to worry about something beyond my control.

Karen stage 4 tonsil cancer diagnosed in 9/01.