Joan - I am so glad you decided to continue with your treatments. I know everyone who has been where you are knows and understands what you are going through. Please stay with us and check back here often - many times every day if you need to. When my son was going through the worst of his Rad TX, this wonderful place is what helped both of us to find the courage, information and help he needed to survive and become cancer free! Do let us know what is happening with you.