Hi PAt,
Hang on. I kept positive, but exhaustion and helplessness got to me. I felt like nothing I did eased any of martin's pain, but i know now it did (he told me later). It's so tough but you need to keep strong.
I had a colleague I went for coffee with everytime I was at work around lunchtime, and friends to winge at. And I must say this board was a life saver. And my family in France called almost every day.
What got to me one day was that every one kept asking how Martin was, and at that point I was so tired looking after Martin and holding down a job, that I thought "how about me, no one asks how I am!". But I keot quiet I wasn't sick and i felt bad just thinking that at the time. But it's normal.
As everyone else here said take some time out, even if it is having a cup of tea in the garden, look at the flowers, talk to a friend, and come here and talk
All the best.
cecilia