Hi everyone

I am feeling terrible, really low and so far I have been so positive. Now it feels like everything has hit me and I can't stop crying and feel ever so sad. I have a continuous headache, My throat is killing me, I can hardly swallow or talk, my hair is thinning and I am sick at least four times a day at the moment. And its only just begun. I am not always like this i have been very positive and getting on with my normal life, its just every now and then I think...when is this going to end?!!!! When am I going to be myself again? I am scared of talking to my loved one's because I don't want them to hurt more than they already are. My boyfriend is great and has been amazing but you know when he asks how are you feeling I generally act positive even though sometimes I am screaming inside.
Confusion and fear and panic is taking over my life. I am finding all of this very difficult today.

Sorry folks just needed to get this off my chest.