Hello Sheila,

Sorry you are joining us but please know you are welcome. You have come to the right place for shoulders and venting. Sunday's are a bit slow so a lot of your fellow caretakers and family members may not be on the boards today. I'm not sure how much I could help since I am a patient, but there are people here that will reply with I'm sure helpful answers.

We have as many caretakers and family members (I believe) as we do actual survivors and patients.
We do have a new caretakers section that you might want to visit as your journey proceeds, it has some wonderful, caring and loving people that post who understand your side of cancer. From reading your post it seems that you may have more strength than you realize. Always remember - "one day at a time" and take deep breaths when you feel you are losing control. You will get through this.

I wish you the best.
Dinah