I am so sorry to hear this. I have had 4 re-occurrences with complications. Oral cancer is just so crazy! Everybody tells me to take it only 1 day at a time and that is VERY hard to do. I understand your worries and concerns. I cry a lot too. It's like the surgery and radiation wasn't enough to go through, right? And I think it's hard to find people that truly understand oral cancer. That's where the loneliness comes in for me. We have no way of knowing what will happen and when and that is very scary! I am thinking of you....do what you are doing and stay on top of things! Wendy