It's 3:00 a.m and I just can't sleep. I haven't been sleeping much lately. I have the constant fear of my brothers Cancer returning. I have the fear of hearing bad news at any of his appointments. I am so scared and I just don't know what to do. I believe he will be okay. The doctors say he will be okay too. I am so sad that he had to deal with all of this. I am sad that he is only 22 and has had the hardest time ever.

22 YO Brother Dx 6/17/14 w. SCC R Lateral tongue
CT scan clear LN 6/20/14
HPV-, non-smoker
R tongue, right hemiglossectomy Surgery 6/24/14
(Not reoccurrence but went to NCCC instead
R neck dissection, tracheostomy, radial free flap, R tongue dissection surg 8/11/14
PT1N2B.3 positive lymph nodes out of 13
Extranodal extension present
9-15-14 IMRT (35x) & Cisplatin (2x) begun
10-21-14 peg in. 10-31-14 1 round of carboplatin
11-4-14 IMRT rx comp
3-27-15 Recurrent tumor in lymph node, L neck diss.
10-29-15 brother passed away, 23 yrs old