Consultation with an oncology surgeon at UCSD's Moores Cancer Center was very positive I thought. Although he agreed with literally everyone else I've found that surgery is not the answer here he is getting me seen by their CCC panel asap and he also is slating me for a PET scan. So I feel like at least I'm going to get the best advice possible under the circumstances which is what many of you here at the site have suggested.

I'm trying hard to stay positive on a daily basis but I'm not looking forward to having the conversation with my kids - haven't told them yet. My ex and I have agreed that we should do it together at the end of the weekend. It'll be rough.