I had fear when I was first diagnosed, I guess of the unknown, but not really much anymore, I faced my fears a long time ago, including death, many illnesses, 5 recurrences, and still angry, which may be the wrong word, but sounds better than preparation, information, active surveillance, and vigilance I do. Actually, anger is also somewhat related to fight or flight syndrome. I never fled from anyone, and all my jobs entailed my responding when everyone else ran away lol, so I'm not starting now. But I like being an angry man, somewhat fearful. anyway lol, it keeps me on the edge to act quickly. Actually, anger is part of any traumatic event, much like dealing with death, first it's shock, then denial, anger or blame, depression, and finally acceptance to move on. I just never accepted cancer to move on.