I had fear when I was first diagnosed, I guess of the unknown, but not really much anymore, I faced my fears a long time ago, including death, many illnesses, 5 recurrences, and still angry, which may be the wrong word, but sounds better than preparation, information, active surveillance, and vigilance I do. Actually, anger is also somewhat related to fight or flight syndrome. I never fled from anyone, and all my jobs entailed my responding when everyone else ran away lol, so I'm not starting now. But I like being an angry man, somewhat fearful. anyway lol, it keeps me on the edge to act quickly. Actually, anger is part of any traumatic event, much like dealing with death, first it's shock, then denial, anger or blame, depression, and finally acceptance to move on. I just never accepted cancer to move on.



10/09 T1N2bM0 Tonsil
11/09 Taxo Cisp 5-FU, 6 Months Hosp
01/11 35 IMRT 70Gy 7 Wks
06/11 30 HBO
08/11 RND PNI
06/12 SND PNI LVI
08/12 RND Pec Flap IORT 12 Gy
10/12 25 IMRT 50Gy 6 Wks Taxo Erbitux
10/13 SND
10/13 TBO/Angiograph
10/13 RND Carotid Remove IORT 10Gy PNI
12/13 25 Protons 50Gy 6 Wks Carbo
11/14 All Teeth Extract 30 HBO
03/15 Sequestromy Buccal Flap ORN
09/16 Mandibulectomy Fib Flap Sternotomy
04/17 Regraft hypergranulation Donor Site
06/17 Heart Attack Stent
02/19 Finally Cancer Free Took 10 yrs