So here I am post diagnosis, in the lull before horrific treatment (cut and burn, poison optional), when I am 'spose to be so keenly aware of every moment, every blessing..........more alive than ever in the face of mortal threat........
YADDA YADDA FRICKIN YADDA.
Guess I missed the noble cancer warrior pose at yoga, people. Cuz I am one surly woman right now. I have no patience. And the snapping I'm doing is NOTHING compared to the snapping I'm thinking.
So now, on top of everything else, I have GUILT for how I'm treating the people closest to me. As if they didn't have enough pain already.
Who knows what I'm talking here???
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T3N2aM0 HPV+
5/26/13 discovered painless superball-sized lymph node in neck
6/26/13 DX SCC R palatine tonsil
7/16/13 TORS tonsillectomy & selective ND, mets to 2 nodes
9/3/13 Cisplatin and rads begin, tolerated 1.5 of 3 planned chemo doses
10/16/13 Treatment ends
Dec 13 Ulcer appears at surgery site
Jan 17 Biopsy -- no cancer!
Feb 17 CT/PET Scan lights up tonsil bed & nasal cavity, docs say probably inflammation, don't panic, rescan when ulcer subsides
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