It sounds to me like you've already given up, I know reality looms but there is always the potential for the treatments to work. I'm not talking through my hat either, I was just saying to charm, there is a woman on a Facebook page I belong to who has had 5 recurrences and radiation with each one and she is cancer free now, my friend Jeanna's husband was sent home to die..he's NED now. Christine has had three battles and is now cancer free. Im not saying do anything extraordinary but do get treatment, do a trial if you can. You're so young. I am glad you've made plans for your kitties so your mind is at ease, and definitely hope you get home to enjoy being on your own. You deserve that and more. hugs we're here to walk through this with you.