Sorry Brian that my post was a bit confusing. I am just so upset lately I really don't know if I am coming or going. Darren did have radiation treatments about 7 weeks of it plus one full week of chemo.

He did have a CT scan done when first diagnosed but it didn't detect the primary source of cancer. The primary source of cancer wasn't even detected until the reoccurence in December of 2001.

We live in Nova Scotia and Halifax is the closet cancer centre we have. I wouldn't say they are specialists in the field of oral cancer. I blame myself for how far this has gone. When Darren was first diagnosed I should of asked more questions and did more research. At the time I was due to have our second child and things were just crazy. Not that that should be an excuse. When you go through these things you put your faith in the doctors believing they are doing the best job that they understand the disease more than you do. But now I look back and I question everything.

I look at Darren now and can't stop crying because I feel extremely helpless. He seems to be getting more sick. It is extremely heart breaking.

If we don't like what Darren's oncologist has to say we will look elsewhere. I don't know if you know of any specialists in Canada that deal with this cancer but if you do I would appreciate their names and contact. If not I will take any suggestions you have. My husband is not ready to throw in the towel. Like he said he wants to be here to see Lord of the Rings part 3. He has a very good sense of humor about it all.