Donna,
I am at the 10 year mark and still get up tight before each checkup. Wednesday was my day at Johns Hopkins and upon arrival after a 2 and a half hour drive my blood pressure was up to 170/84 when my normal is abot 110/65 or some such. So my only suggestion is for you to recognize that there will be weeks like this. I find myself "bighting back" at my wife. She now understands to a degree and stays "off my back" about it. I wish you the best. Cancer sucks for all.
Vernon