falling apart - 11-04-2010 02:53 AM
Matt is home from surgery. Stronger. Back to trying to take care of everyone. He can put on the strongest front while I can barely get out of bed to go to work.
Tonight he's playing some Garth Brooks in the guest room. The Dance comes on and I am crying my eyes out. I went to him and he held me and we danced while I cried. I told him I'm scared. Tomorrow we see the oncologist to find out how bad the bone met. is. He tells me that he is sad too. Says that he'd stick around and haunt me but he didn't think that would be too pleasant for me. I told him I wished better for him than that. Then he apologizes for the song and changed it to more upbeat music and acts like nothing ever happened.
While I am happy that he seems to have found a "happy place" in all of this... but where is mine?
Tonight he's playing some Garth Brooks in the guest room. The Dance comes on and I am crying my eyes out. I went to him and he held me and we danced while I cried. I told him I'm scared. Tomorrow we see the oncologist to find out how bad the bone met. is. He tells me that he is sad too. Says that he'd stick around and haunt me but he didn't think that would be too pleasant for me. I told him I wished better for him than that. Then he apologizes for the song and changed it to more upbeat music and acts like nothing ever happened.
While I am happy that he seems to have found a "happy place" in all of this... but where is mine?