#29711 12-13-2007 11:26 PM | Joined: Sep 2007 Posts: 37 Contributing Member (25+ posts) | OP Contributing Member (25+ posts) Joined: Sep 2007 Posts: 37 | well its nearly here and i really want to go and get the results. the 4 months of hanging around , worrying and waiting for results is really driving me to madness.
i was a nervous, crying , shaking wreck in the 3 to 4 months leading up to going back to the hospital, then since getting the biopsy 2 weeks ago i seem to have a sudden calmness about me that i never imagined was coming.
the fear and worry seems to have left for the time being and has been replaced with some anger and impatience,
i am so angry with all the twinges and pains that i fell in my throat, neck, chest and back/shoulder area, i get bloody angry because i dont know if its just my imagination running riot and whether it will all just dissapear if i was lucky enough to get good news on monday.
also annoying me is the fact that my tongue was fine until i got the biopsy, now theres a large white area that has a kind of hard feeling underneath that was never there before the biopsy, im hoping its just to do with the biopsy and stitches.
as i said i am just fed up waiting and now just want to go and find out either way so i can either get on with my bloody life or start doing something about this.
the aches and twinges are really peeving me right off !!!!!
Derek | | |
#29712 12-14-2007 01:46 PM | Joined: Jun 2007 Posts: 5,260 Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts) | Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts) Joined: Jun 2007 Posts: 5,260 | I know that feeling derek, I had a pet Scan 1 week ago today and mailed the results to the Cancer center. I called today and the Scans just got there.. I am worried too. But we will both survive this wait. I have the white tongue and a lump of some sort on the opposite side of the surgery. Good luck,,,,, Jim
Since posting this. UPMC, Pittsburgh, Oct 2011 until Jan. I averaged about 2 to 3 surgeries a week there. w Can't have jaw made as bone is deteroriating steaily that is left in jaw. Mersa is to blame. Feeding tube . Had trach for 4mos. Got it out April. --- Passed away 5/14/14, will be greatly missed by everyone here
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#29713 12-15-2007 10:30 PM | Joined: Sep 2007 Posts: 37 Contributing Member (25+ posts) | OP Contributing Member (25+ posts) Joined: Sep 2007 Posts: 37 | well tomorrows nearly here, just hope everything goes o.k , i get the right result and i can put the last 4 months behind me for a while and start enjoying the quality time i get with my wee girl. i will also have the best christmas ever ( with no alcohol ! ), heres hoping, fingers crossed. hopefully at midday tomorrow all will be well.
Derek | | |
#29714 12-16-2007 02:05 AM | Joined: May 2007 Posts: 632 "Above & Beyond" Member (300+ posts) | "Above & Beyond" Member (300+ posts) Joined: May 2007 Posts: 632 | Will be thinking of you tomorrow Derek, the best of luck! Brenda
Brenda in UK--Diagnosis 30/5/07--undifferentiated carcinoma in right jawbone and muscles. Stage 4 6/7/07--new diagnosis primary is in lung. Finished 4cycles of palliative carboplatin/gemcitabine therapy September 07 Now dying to live!
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#29715 12-16-2007 03:18 AM | Joined: Apr 2005 Posts: 2,219 Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts) | Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts) Joined: Apr 2005 Posts: 2,219 | Derek,
I will be thinking of you tomorrow and praying for a good report.
Jerry
Jerry
Retired Dentist, 59 years old at diagnosis. SCC of the left lateral border of the tongue (Stage I). Partial glossectomy and 30 nodes removed, 4/6/05. Nodes all clear. No chemo no radiation 18 year survivor.
"Whatever doesn't kill me, makes me stronger"
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#29716 12-16-2007 04:06 AM | Joined: Sep 2007 Posts: 37 Contributing Member (25+ posts) | OP Contributing Member (25+ posts) Joined: Sep 2007 Posts: 37 | thanks, i am hoping for the best, dont want to have to tell my daughter any bad news, its my dads 60th tomorrow as well.
i am a little scared again, but im more in the frame of mind that i just want to go and know, as it has been really annoying me of late, so i have more of a fighting spirit about me.
thanks to all for your thoughts, i hope it works !!
thanks
Derek | | |
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