Welcome to OCF! Im sorry you have a need to join our group. You definitely are in the right place to learn about your disease and the treatments and recovery. Sounds like you are doing pretty good if you were able to return to work only 6 weeks after finishing rads.
You are going thru what almost every survivor does. We all think about
"what if"... The hard part is to move past the worrying which is not easy at all. After going thru so much its only natural to fear having to go thru it again. All any of us can do is find the very best medical team we can, do what they tell us and trust that it will work. Try to focus on what is within your control. One thing that you can work on is something in your control, your intake, this will help speed your recovery. Hopefully you are eating enough without using the feeding tube. Every single day for at least the first year after rads you need a higher caloric intake (at least 2500 daily calories and 48-64 oz of water).
This probably will sound strange but you are lucky to have
HPV+ as your cause for getting OC. Im not one to pat much attention to statistics, but I do know
HPV+ patients have better survival rates. The survival rates are showing the 5 year point of patients. No, its not the best numbers but many beat the odds and survive. Im one of those who somehow managed to survive when the odds were against me.
Best wishes with your continued recovery.