Hi Angelina,
It's ok to not feel like a fighter everyday. We all break down and that's important too. I went to a therapist 2 1/2 years after my diagnosis and it helped A LOT. I think you should give it go...if the first person isn't a good fit for you try someone else. I didn't like the first one I went to..there was no connection. When I did find my therapist, I cried for the entire hour of my first appointment:) It felt soooo good. I proud that you made the appointment. Keep us posted with how you are doing.