Hello folks, I hope all is well in OCF land. You Brits keep it up. I so enjoy reading your post. What I was wondering about is the mixed feelings that start when the anniversary dates start roling around. October 16th is the 1 year mark since my DX and although I am very grateful to be here to feel this way I still feel very sad. All I can really think about is the misery and the sickness from the chemo, the pain, disconforts and side effects of the radiation, the loss of taste, and the new life as I know it now. I am so very thankful I am able to sit here and express these feelings but this is/was a journey I would not wish on any person. I am so very grateful for this board and I thank you Brian for all you have done and will do. Is this abnormal and I need help or is this understandable and part of the healing process? I don't know. Thanks for letting me vent.