I have been very strong up till about 5 hours ago. Mom has been in a lot of pain all day. We will be going to see a specialist tomorrow and I am going to stop by her RO's office and get seomthingmore for her pain. I am beside myself with fear, it just hit me about an hour ago....really hit me that I mimght lose my mom. I'm not ready for that. Earlier she was crying and said it would be easier if a bus hit her. She has no idea what is in store for her with the radiation. I've read some post where people have made it through fairly easy...then the others who have been through hell. If this is happening now, prior to tx, what is going to happen once it begins. Is it ok for me to say that i hate everyone that has been involved in this case, that her first appointment was 4/25 and nothing has been done yet?!? I am beside myself with anger and no where to turn. I know that the ro will help but this is taking to long.
it's unfair
thanks for letting me vent