Hey Jayann !

You will be hard pressed to find any more straight up people than cancer specialists. If they say its curable, go with that and be happy !

The only things I could pry out of my oncologist were "Its a serious cancer John....." and "You had better get your affairs in order."

I could not believe what I was hearing, and I know I should have taken it a lot more seriously than I did.

But I still had lots of things to do in my life, and decided I would rather fight the cancer than accept the consequences if I lost the battle.

That may not make a lot of sense, but few things do make sense with cancer.

Surviving this horrible disese is everyone's goal, and with today's treatment planning combined with dedicated, caring health professionals, the expectations of success are encouraging, realistic and obtainable.

I put all my faith in the team of specialists who rallied for my cause, and followed their every instruction to the letter. I set one primary goal, and that was to complete all 3 Cisplatin chemotherapy treatments (I had heard that many patients have difficulty completing all treatments due to low energy, extreme nausea and other side effects). I did not want to fall short in this department; how effective would only 2 tx be ? Would I only be 2 thirds successful ?

I know its hard sometimes to stay focused, but focused you must stay. As others have indicated, you will settle into a more comfortable headspace with the passage of time. But don't become complacent - stay sharp and stay motivated to kill cancer 24/7.

One positive outcome of cancer for me was a finer appreciation of other people and how important the gift of life really is. The relationship I share with my wife has been joyfully enhanced as well, and not just because of her support which was rock solid. I wanted to be a better husband which meant I needed some extra time on the planet to satisfy that objective. I still have a ways to go, but it has turned out to be an impressive motivator......

I wish you every success in the battle. Email or message me should you ever want a sounding board or need to talk something through.

Kindest regards,
JT2