You're not alone angie88...I'm new and just as scared, however, hearing what others have to say and reading some blogs here has helped some.

I'm also trying not to focus on the painful part so much.

Age 55, Right side throat with ear pain. Squamous cell carcinoma of the supraglottis with cervical neck metastasis. Stage IV disease with a T3, N2, MX

March 2008, diagnosed with Non-Hodgkins Folicular Lymphoma

Now taking Thyroid pills for side effects of Rad Treatments

And Life Goes On...