Hey Jon,
Welcome to the club tht no one wants to belong to. You're doing exactly the right thing...fighting the demon, with everything you've got. If you'd said you hadn't cried over this, I wouldn't have believed you.

I'm about 8 months further along than you, and I underwent major surgery and radiation. It is the biggest battle you will ever fight, but you will learn things about yourself that will amaze you.

Keep hanging around here and you'll meet some of the most amazing and wonderful people you'll ever have the privelege of meeting
Wayne