I am going to finally start treatment on Monday, December 18, and to be perfectly honest, I am scared spitless...I am anxious to get started but also worried about how I am going to take the chemo and the radiation. It seems like forever since i was diagnosed, but it has only been a month, I have had all my teeth pulled, a stomach tube put in to help me keep my weight up later on, and finally my "new " teeth. I am at times simply overwhelmed by all the information I have been given, and the fact that I have CANCER. I feel afloat on the sea of life and at times there is no land in sight.