Mary, its ok!!! No regrets or apologies necessary. We all understand what its like to go thru the horrible side effects you are dealing with. All those things can put patients under so much more unnecessary stress which is NOT healthy for patients. It only makes everything harder. We all have times when we feel overwhelmed. One thing that greatly helps make most people feel better is to have a safe place to talk about things and vent our frustrations to. One of the very best things about the OCF forum is that all patients are anonymous. We value our members privacy and only ask the most basic info when setting up a new account. We even keep our members email addresses private so no member can be contacted by another. Its completely up to the member how much personal info they share or keep to themselves. Its completely normal to sometimes get upset and become concerned when facing the unknown with serious medical issues. Many patients will get depressed, others become withdrawn, many also benefit from temporarily taking anxiety meds. Its just another tool to get them thru the day, week, etc. Bottom line is we understand what you're going thru and its ok. If you are feeling upset or weak at times, we understand and its ok to lean on us. You're in the very best place to get help, we try as much as possible to help everyone. While you are here, feel free to vent, rant, cry, etc. After you get everything off your chest, you will feel better.