I am so scared of dying. I watched my mum and dad die and it was horrible. My fear all my life is not being able to breathe. I dont like enclosed spaces for this reason. I have prayed many times this last week.
I've asked that he let me be ok. I have so many things i want to do. I am not ready but if this is kidney cancer with distant mets to my jaw i wont have long.....

Has anyone else had any mets to their jaw? Ive read its very rare.

All this has happened so quickly. 3 weeks ago i was having my 6 monthly check up. Then all this has happened. The pain, the lumps and the numbness in my bottom lip. Pains in my back and abdomin. Ive got the classic signs but with distant spread already so incurable.

The lumps in my mouth is definitely growing. Each day im noticing the gum is changing. The alveolar ia changing from gum to something different. On my left side i can feel the bumps from the roots of my teeth. The right side now has no bumps from my teeth. Its definitely thicker and ainful. I have a scary feeling it will ulcerate in a few days.