Sherry, I can understand why you're scared. I'm sending you positive vibes. Reconstruction is big surgery but many of us here have been through it and now cope just fine. I've had two reconstructions or "flaps": one on my tongue and one in my cheek/on my gum. Both times I thought it was the end of the world but each time I recovered. It's hard not to look at what can go wrong and what happened to JetAge was tragic. Doesn't mean it will happen to you. If possible treat yourself to pleasant things and food over the next two weeks before your surgery. Eat nice stuff. See a counsellor. Write a journal.

I wish you well!