Sorry I know I get annoying with my questions my fear is not dying exactly its not seeing my family no more not being to hangout with my friends and talk like normal not being able to talk to the girl I like knowing that out all the people who get this its nice people I've seen vedios and pictures of surgeries and I feel really bad for them the pain and fear they have I get scared of going through that and not living life like a teen not being able to get married or have kids im pretty sure no girl will want me if im disfigured I just want to live my life normally I don't want to drink , smoke or do anything bad to anyone I just want a family a wife some kids I love children and my passion witch is boxing hone that's what scares me